Finally, the day had arrived for Emily to be born! The labor & delivery went very smooth so I couldn’t complain much there. I will say that the fatigue you feel postpartum is incredible! I wasn’t sure I would ever have energy again, and I wasn’t even in labor all that long!
Weighing just 6#, Emily was a beautiful child (once they got her cleaned up)!
It is absoluetly AMAZING to witness the miracle of birth – especially after such trials with infertility! One strange fact is that Emily was born on the anniversary date of my miscarriage so many years before. March 1st. I think it was just one of those little winks from God telling me that He’s got this 🙂
I’ll never forget bringing her home. I wasn’t scared, just exhausted and curious to see how our lives would adjust to our new addition.
I was determined to breast feed her to give her the healthiest start to life as possible. However, that was probably one of the toughest things I have ever decided to do. She ate just fine, but slow, and then she threw it all back up and cried for more. It was miserable! I don’t know how I made it through that time as it was one big brain fog of exhaustion. I slept when I could, but it was never enough! Because I was breastfeeding, I wasn’t too hip on anyone else helping. Emily was also colicy and cried all of the time. I was falling into post-partum depression. I wanted to close myself up in the house and never come out. I didn’t want to admit failure in breastfeeding & I desperately wanted to provide the antibodies for Emily.
Finally, my pediatrician convinced me that I needed to do something to get some sleep. He encouraged me to try some formula with her. It was probably the best decision ever! To help with the colic, I had limited my diet down to chicken & rice, but now I was free to eat again! I was free to sleep again! And, she didn’t throw it all back up right away… Strange, but sometimes the best thing to do is not what we immediately think. I am so thankful for that pediatrician for that advice! It changed my outlook completely and I could finally enjoy my little blessing.
The next few months (and years) flew by!!!